When your dog was your baby before babies came along
I know there is something going on!
I first met you when you were sad, you cried a lot, cuddled me and took me to the pub most weeks. You gave me pints of Guinness as special treats, you changed your car from a 2 seater to a 4×4 for me, people introduced themselves with cheese. I loved running up and down the canal with you. I remember the day I fell in chasing ducks, you pulled me out, took me home and looked after me when I caught a cold. You trusted me to walk by myself, I was so scared of letting you down, I would never cross a road without your instruction. You took me everywhere with you, I remember a weekend in Wales where it was just you and me. This was a weekend where things changed. You cried a lot but once we returned home you seemed to get happier. Seeing you happy made me happy. Every Friday you would walk me with your friend TT and we would go to a great place called the Orange Tree, I got so many treats, lots of cuddles, you talked to a lot of people, some I liked and some I didn’t. It was in the Orange Tree we met Jon Sean for the first time, he fed me a lot of sausage rolls, gave me a lot of cuddles, but he seemed sad. I was hoping we could take him away for a weekend like we did in Wales and make him happy. We saw him a few more times and I wasn’t sure about him at first as he kept trying to kiss you. I tried to warn him off, you were my special person, but he fed me a lot of pizza so I let him be friends with both of us. I didn’t think walks could become more fun, but with Jon here now there was more laughter and I loved seeing you the happiest I had ever seen you. I remember days we all used to lie on the bed, just eating and sleeping, I did recognise you getting quite fat. Then fatter and a little moody, not that I minded. Then all of a sudden there was a little person you called Halle. She was pretty cute, and you were happy, but you started shouting at me a lot more and the walks weren’t as much fun because we had to take that thing with wheels. I wasn’t allowed to sleep on beds and I had to be careful when Halle was on the floor. She grew and started to poke my eyes and nip me occasionally, you told her off, and although I loved her, I did wish it was just you and me. Jon walked me, he cuddled me more and when you weren’t looking he gave me treats. Then you got fat again, I knew what was happening this time and I have to be honest, I wasn’t too happy about it. But this time it was called Albie and as he grew he gave me more food and I really quite liked him. I didn’t really like other dogs bothering him when we went for walks and he gave me great hugs. You were so busy now with two small people, you didn’t really have time for me anymore. But I was so happy you had everything you ever dreamed of. You are my special person and my best friend, but Jon became the one who seemed to understand me. It wasn’t that I fell out of love with you but Jon gave me things that you no longer could. We were a family now and I no longer came first, but I loved our walks all together and the wheel thing stopped coming. They stopped pinching and poking me and started hugging me and giving me treats. I think it was about a year ago, long walks started to become a little trickier and things started to hurt a bit. I had to go and see a lady, that seemed kind but she was a little scary. She gave you some little white things for me, you wrapped them in ham and they seemed to take the pain away. I felt like a new dog, walks were easier and you started letting me sleep on the bed again. Just recently, the pain is far worse than it has ever been, my mouth and ears really hurt too. I just want to sleep all the time. I see you crying a lot at the moment, maybe we should go back to Wales and make you happy. You keep telling me how much you love me, how sorry you are for shouting and that I saved your life when you were sad. You really don’t have to thank me, I feel very lucky to have you as my best friend and you got me Jon too. You have started to give me a lot of treats recently, but really you don’t have too, I know you didn’t give me them to keep me healthy. I have trouble at night holding my mess, you come down each morning, you don’t shout, you just say “never mind, I will clean it”. I am so embarrassed. Lots of people have been coming to see you recently and saying goodbye to me. It’s all really very nice. I am really struggling on walks, but I do like my ham surprises. I heard you talking to Halle yesterday and you said that I was very poorly and you had a message that I was going to heaven soon. You described this beautiful place, with treats everywhere and I can run around all over the place with lots of rabbits and squirrels to chase. You told her I wouldn’t hurt anymore and I could still see you all but you couldn’t see me. I can’t wait to go there, it sounds amazing. She asked you if I would come back, you started crying again and told her that once you go to heaven, you can’t come back. This made me a bit sad, but I really want to go. I will miss you all, but it’s time for me to go. I know I am going to see the lady that gave you the small white things tomorrow, but I am not scared, I know she is kind. With you by my side and your love I will never be scared again. We really were a brilliant team and I leave you with your beautiful family that I have been part of and come to love too. Thank you for everything, I love you. Mylo xxx